The Taste of Ink

Is it worth the can you even hear me

Standing with your spotlight on me

Not enough to feed the hungry

I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now

In this sea of lonely

The taste of ink is getting old

It's four o' clock in the fucking morning

Each day gets more and more like the last day

Still I can see it coming

While I'm standing in the river drowning

This could be my chance to break out

This could be my chance to say goodbye

At last it's finally over

Couldn't take this town much longer

Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be

Now I'm ready to be free

-The Used-

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Let me Introduce, Nube!

He is my new pet

Ups, he is my first pet

Also he is my brother (even i do not know he is a boy or girl)

Why i choose a turtle for my first pet?

First, I don't like kitten, and all of furry animal

I have a phobia with cat, chicken, rabbit etc

I cant touch them

Second, i dont like a fish

I have many fish in my house, it's my dad

I just dont know what's the sense of choosing fish as a pet

You can just look and feed your fish, really bored

That's why i choose turtle

I can play with my turtle

Enjoy my life

maybe there's a released of beta-endorphin (i really dont know)

I feel like playing soccer with my little brother, fadlan.

As i know turtle has a long-age

so, i will be with him until i am a doctor

Even a master of bio-molecular (Amin)

And I gave him a name

NUBE

maybe it's a ridiculous name

I take it from nugrahaboy

and that's cool too, cause it is a name of sensei-nube (Hell teacher/ guru ahli arwah)

okay, It is Nube, my pet and also my brother

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Empty With You

I haven't lost anything except my mind

I try to take off my head sometimes

because I can't escape the memories

because I can't escape for the life of me

You could be empty
and I can be right here empty with you
or you could be hollow
and I can be right here hollow with you
If you want to say goodbye to everything,
I could say goodbye too
I can be right here empty with you.

-The Used-

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Honesty

If you search for tenderness
it isn't hard to find.
You can have the love you need to live.
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind.
It always seems to be so hard to give.

Honesty is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.

I can always find someone
to say they sympathize.
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve.
But I don't want some pretty face
to tell me pretty lies.
All I want is someone to believe.

Honesty is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.

I can find a lover.
I can find a friend.
I can have security until the bitter end.
Anyone can comfort me
with promises again.
I know, I know.

When I'm deep inside of me
don't be too concerned.
I won't as for nothin' while I'm gone.
But when I want sincerity
tell me where else can I turn.
Because you're the one I depend upon.

Honesty is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.

-Billy Joel-

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Mask

I do not know what i am doing
wearing mask
or take off the mask

personality changes

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Feel

Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.

I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
’cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I don’t wanna die,
But I ain’t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I’m preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That’s why I keep on running.
Before I’ve arrived, I can see myself coming.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

And I need to feel, real love
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.

I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in,
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.

I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after
There’s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it’s a real big place.

Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living,
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given

Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.
Not sure I understand.


Robbie Williams



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Sesuai Namanya, Cahaya

Ibunda tercinta, Ibu Nurul Hidayah.

Kemarin saya pergi ke sekolah, SMA Negeri 81 Jakarta. Bersama dengan teman saya, farraas, mala, emma, dan nadya. Dengan satu tujuan, untuk bertemu dengan ibu Nurul. Seseorang yang sangat menginspirasi saya dalam menjalani kehidupan. Beliau adalah ibu kedua bagi saya.

Ketika kami datang ke sekolah, bu Nurul sebetulnya telah pulang ke rumahnya. Saya tahu beliau memiliki banyak sekali kesibukan, namun karena kerinduan yang teramat sangat saya akhirnya mengirimkan sebuah pesan singkat, memberitahukan beliau tentang kedatangan kami ke sekolah, dan akhirnya beliau membalas, beliau akan kembali ke sekolah.

Singkat cerita beliau kembali ke sekolah, dan kami menemui beliau, tidak ada yang berubah dari sosok beliau, tetap menginspirasi, dengan cerita-cerita yang seolah tidak pernah habis. Setelah mendengarkan kisah-kisahnya di sekolah kami akhirnya berkunjung ke rumah beliau. Di sekolah, di dalam mobil dan di rumahnya, beliau terus memiliki cerita inspiratif untuk diberikan kepada kami.

Setelah tiba di rumahnya, saya semakin kagum dengan sosok beliau. Memiliki rumah yang hijau, dan nyaman, serta hubungan dengan orang sekitar yang baik. Beliau juga seorang istri yang sangat sempurna, istri yang memberikan perhatian penuh kepada suaminya.

Kehidupannya yang terlihat berat ternyata dapat ia lalui, dibalik tubuh kecilnya tersimpan kekuatan yang luar biasa besar. Sesuai namanya, beliau adalah cahaya, yang terus menginspirasi semua orang yang berada di dekatnya.

Dan sebuah pesan dari beliau untuk saya, beliau menginginkan saya untuk menjadi ahli biologi molekular, sebuah tantangan untuk saya, semoga saya dapat mengabulkan harapan beliau.




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